Life goes on…

I’m preparing for another loss of income in the coming week, and I’m trying not to let it bother me.  It does…in some ways.  I’m chalking it up as another lesson learned about business ethics…or lack thereof.  But that’s neither here nor there.  People are going to do what they do and you just have to adjust.  There are too many other great things going on in my life right now to worry too much about it.

So this week we get to go to the doctor and check for the baby’s heartbeat.  I’m so excited!  I’ve learned so much in the last few weeks and have enjoyed seeing the beautiful smile on my wife’s face…even through the nauseous stomach feeling.  We’re talking about names, furniture, cars, jobs, and the future.  Everything changes.  But we’re both really looking forward to where those changes are going to lead.

The best part about all of this, besides the new addition to the family, is that we’re both looking at goals in a whole new way.  I’m looking at career paths I looked away from previously.  The old banger Jeep looks like it’s going to be going away in the next few months as well.  I’m looking at neighborhoods that are close to good schools, and I’m thinking about where I want to be when our child is starting grade school.  Needless to say, it makes everything else going on around me pretty pointless.

So I continue my optimistic attitude about a future career path and try hard to ignore those events where my good nature gets taken advantage of.  Maybe I’ll harden with new familial responsibility…you know…having more mouths to feed and everything.  I hope not.  You only live once, and you can’t go through it suspecting everyone of trying to screw you over.  That’s not one of the lessons I want to teach my kids.  My hope and prayer is that they don’t have to see me going through all of that by the time he/she is born.